Drugged up and cancer free!
I am in a tremendous amount of pain. But, I’m alive and kickin’. Thank you to all my friends and family who came last night to be with me and my misery after surgery. I’m sure I bit everyone’s head off at least once. In my defense, the pain is like your entire thoracic area is being squished on both top and bottom by thousand pound freight trains. Last night was particularly bad because it hurt like hell to inhale. Which made me anxious. And of course, my go-to method of self-soothing in times of anxiety is deep breathing, which as you can guess, was not available to me which only perpetuated more anxiety….
They gave me dilaudin in an iv, and apparently I was saying some very insightful things… I remember none of them.
“Dentures are like glasses for your teeth” “I can eat candy apples with both my dentures in and my dentures out, because I have strong gums”(I do not have dentures. Nor have I eaten a candy apple since I was about 6) “I feel that if I could tickle myself, I wouldn’t be so needy” “Ellen can probably tickle herself, because she can do anything” “I wish we were all self sufficient ticklers” (yeah, no idea)…. And the list goes on. Thank goodness my mom and aunt Janet were there to witness and document it….
I’m on flexerol now, and it’s helping, but I am still extremely sore. One of the doctors told me today will probably be the most painful day, and then it will improve from here. So I’m keeping my fingers crossed….
Thanks again for all of the support. 💙